alone in the croud. . . poem 19

I am just another person a person in the crowd

 you could not tell witch one was me if the lights went out

you say I am amazing I’m just a shade of gray

 one just like the others nothing special nothing extraordinary

 I’m just another person a person in the crowd

and if we were to meet you'd turn and leave me

standing all alone again

 alone in the crowd

invisible... poem 18

Invisible,

I am invisible

Forever invisible

Never seen invisible

Never herd invisible

Never touched invisible

Never held invisible

Never slept invisible

Never live invisible

Never fly invisible

Never loved invisible

Forever invisible

I am invisible

Invisible

lost love and memory. . . poem 17

Every single tear

On the floor they dropped

And every last good bye

That made my life go plop

For every single time

I told you I love you

All the poems I have written

And the blood that I gave for two

Every time I try to make it clear

What we have I want to stay

You turn your back around

And make it seam you want to walk away

I am not a perfect person

But not a shade of gray

Many different colors

Make me what I am today

If you never could imagine what we ever could be

Then take a look inside my head

and see what the hell I see

Every single tear

On the rose peddle they now fall

And every last good bye

My memory trailed off. . . . .

star bright. . . poem 16

Star light star bright won’t you hear my wish to night

My wish to love forever what  is really real

And see beyond the veil of that which is concealed

Show me to my path and color it in gray

Teach me what I need to know or take my life away

Save me from this ditch that they call my life

Don’t drop me from this cliff and leave me here to die

feeling never felt. . . poem 15

never has this feeling

sprinted through my veins

this feeling warm and fuzzy

I hope that it remains

For once I feel accepted

By one that I can love

The one I have had feelings for

Since this year begun

You know who you are

You say you love me to

I guess it’s fair to say

I’ve fallen in love with you

<3

my truth. . . poem 14

Through the glitter through the black

No one see’s the confidence I lack

I hide my fears behind a smile

Knowing there will be tears in a while

Though the beauty I may show

only sadness is what I know

you wonder what is in the dark

in the shadows of my heart

the barriers I’ve built

because of you have begun to wilt

secret smile. . . poem 13

You were once a stranger then I came to know

The little secret life that you did not show

You hide behind the mask

That people recognize as a smile

No one know that it may fade after a while

You once slammed a door and now I hold the key

The key to all your secrets you never shared with me

Will you let me in I’ll save you from your fate

Fate your destination if you don’t trust in me

You sit up in your room and poetry you write

Each poem screams the truth if you look down deep inside

poem for my last love. . .poem 12

Life without love like                      air without breathing

     Air without breathing            like death without pain

        Sound of the nature              breath deeply sing in me
and silence the whispering         summons from death

When I become tired of this mourning sad life

I will adventure to the afterlife

Hold me to close so that I may stop breathing

And know that you are that you are my only true love

I lay my head down to my sweet deathly lullaby

The vary last shoulder I cry to is yours

I lean up and whisper my vary last words

The one truth before I slip away

And listen as no one begs me to stay

The vary last words I say to you

My only true love

I love you

inside my head. . .poem 11

For every long lost wish on my lips you kissed

And every untold prayer you gave another care

If every time I spoke I told you I love you

I would not express how much I really do

Your face inside my head is burned into my eyes

Forever will it stay until the day I die

When this day should come I wish to tell you

How many times I think of you and how much

I love you <3

undesired truth . . .poem 10

Speak now you words of wisdom

To hold my head up high

Talk down my suicidal thoughts

Or kiss my life goodbye

Love to far for me to hold

My death a tempting kiss

Hold me so close to your heart

As I slowly turn to dust

You will never see me smile

Or say a single prayer

And never will you tell again

To live my life so clear

I’m not afraid to live

Or to stick me with a knife

So if you really love me

You will save me from my life

And so I will lay dead

silent goodbye. . . poem 9

Holy heart you caused this

Broken smile never fixed

Love unwanted silent kiss

Life I’m dying sinking bliss

Eyes now closing never missed

My blood drips down it’s now useless

My body now in endless sleep

Silent dreams and willing prayer

Kiss now frozen in the night

And words now whispered silent goodbye